The summer I realized

I have been living in the fast lane for so long, that I forget to pause and look back at all that I’ve accomplished. After coming back from Europe I finally felt that I am exactly where I’m supposed to be. I didn’t feel the need to keep booking trips so frequently and just enjoy where I am now. My niece is getting older and now notices if I’m not around. I want nothing more but to be a source of inspiration for her. I have also been forced to slow down as I came back and got my MRI results. No wonder I’ve been in so much constant pain. I’ll be brutally honest, I feel like this injury has robbed me of my identity. I’m this disco ball of energy and I can’t be that right now. I knew I had to slow down eventually but I ask myself why like this? I don’t think I’ve been this sad and upset in a long time. All I can do is crawl into bed and curl myself into a ball and cry in pain. I sleep on my right side mainly and I will be jolted wide awake by the nerve pain which runs down both arms and down to my left leg. I’ve never been one to take any type of medication and now I have to take them daily. I’ve been leaning on my faith to help me overcome these dark days. Some days are better than others but man being hurt has been the worst thing that’s happened to me. Knowing I will be with this chronic pain constantly has left me feeling defeated. I know there are brighter days ahead but as I sit in pain, I pray for healing for myself and for others who are also hurt. I know I’m not alone and injuries happen all the time but I just have to give it time. Life is full of obstacles and I’ve had to endure many of them, this is just the current one I have to face. Please pray for me ❤