It feels so surreal to be going back to a place that healed me in a time when I needed it most. I don’t know many people whom can say that the first time they went to Europe was off a one way ticket to live there. But I can. I took the biggest leap of faith and traded the normalcy of a 9-5 full time government job and moved to not even just a new country but a new continent all by myself. I often have people ask me when I tell them this if I knew anyone over there and I say absolutely not. The more I write this out the more insane it sounds but if you know me, one thing I am good at is taking risks and stepping out of my comfort zone. I also consider myself a social butterfly so I knew that making friends would not be hard. You can do anything in this life and I’ve proven this to myself time and time again. I can’t seem to get excited for this upcoming trip because I know that I will have to come back. I loved living in Europe so much and especially being in Spain where I resided. Living walking distance to the beach and its epic sunsets healed my soul. I’ve been in such a funk since being injured that I am also thinking of the long travel days ahead. I feel that often times we romanticize traveling as a whole but in reality it can be so tiresome and grueling. As I’m typing this I’m getting dressed to have my MRI’s this evening. This constant pain I’m having to deal with on a daily basis has been affecting me more than I care to admit. I’m trying to stay positive that I even have the opportunity to return and visit new countries. It’s also such a full circle moment because I’m returning for Tomorrowland when this festival was the exact reason I extended my stay after my visa expired. I would have rushed home to meet my baby niece but I knew I had to experience that festival once in this lifetime. But as luck would have it I will be blessed with the opportunity to attend a second time. I think back about how the last experience was with friends from three different eras of my life and now it’s with the festival friends I have made from 2024 to now which I think is so beautiful. The one thing I’m the best at in life is being hard on myself. I’m still in a healing era only this time we’ve also added physical healing. I’m in a waiting season and that’s okay, because we can’t rush gods timing. I may still not be in the thriving career I have envisioned for myself and I am still very much single three years after my divorce. The reason I’m sharing this is if you are also in a waiting season that it will get better and know you are not alone. I know I am nowhere close to the same woman I was when I first visited Europe. I recognize my worth and my discernment has made me chose my friends wisely. It’s a privilege to be in my life because I will make sure you are always loved and supported. I’m also here to remind you to just go for it. Tomorrow is not promised for any of us. If you needed a sign let this be it. For those who made it reading this far thank you for being in my life and I hope to continue to inspire.
Journey of Jessy 