You are enough

I have found that blogging has become somewhat therapeutic for me. I have a journal that I write in constantly but I’m choosing to share my thoughts on here publicly in hopes that it helps anyone needing advice, travel tips, or just to remind you that it’s going to be okay. As humans we seek human connection constantly that’s why social media is so popular because we want to feel connected to others so this is just another outlet for me to be a yapper and overshare. I think to myself all the time what impact or legacy do I want to leave when I die because this little blog will forever live on the internet and I just want it to be a positive one. I have a T-shirt that reads “Be the light” and I wear it proudly because I am living proof that there is light at the end of the tunnel. I’m on a constant quest to become the best version of myself and to be the person both my niece and nephews can be proud to call their aunt. I also hope that I inspire others to take risks and do things they normally wouldn’t do like quit their jobs and move abroad (like me). I promise I’m only trying to be a positive influence and to convince you to come to a rave hehe. I only got back into raving once I realized how much I used to love it & coming to the conclusion I was being held back without even knowing it. I no longer wait around on anyone to do anything so half the time you will find me going solo to shows or solo traveling like I did in most of Europe. When you switch the mindset of “why did this happen to me” to “what is this trying to teach me” it helps navigate the hard days a bit more. I’ve recently have had to ask myself this question and I just have to remind myself that none of us have everything figured out. I’m no longer trying to force any relationships or friendships in my life because it is a privilege to have access to me. This summer has been both healing and transformative as I continue to figure out where I should be headed in life. The planner in me has had to let go of the plans I used to have for my future. Just a few weeks back was my 2nd divorceversary if that’s even a word. I will admit I felt a mix of emotions about it and I told myself it’s okay to feel that way. I found a quote the other day that had the hashtag “divorced not dead” and I laughed so hard because its true. With that being said I unfortunately have found that you can’t force someone to do right by you, you can’t love someone out of their brokenness and it will never be my job to fix someone who is unwilling to help themselves. I know that hurt people hurt people and therefore all I can do is pray over them to get the healing they need. When you trust god and his plan for you then it takes away any anxiety you feel about the future.

For anyone who reads this, know that you are enough just as you are. Do not let anyone on this planet make you feel like you are unworthy. Those who are meant to be in your life will be there. My favorite saying “your vibe attracts your tribe” is very true, so keep being genuine and your people will find you. I’m here to remind you that rejection was just redirection but also protection. Do not compare yourself to others as comparison is the thief of joy and everyone’s journey is different. I will leave you with my current favorite bible verse 2 Corinthians 5:7 states “Walk by faith, not by sight.”